7/6/17
11:36PM
Hey blog! It's been so long since ive blog about my life. So far, whats happening in my life right now so far so good! I just wanna say that i have finally get OVER WITH ACCOUNTING like finally! Been waiting for this day till i'm over and done with it! Two hours doing the accounting paper is a NO NO. I didn't get to finish up & check apparently. However, it doesnt matter to me right now because at least i did try lol... I cried after the paper LOLLLL because i was so disappointed with myself so much because i did so much practice and i couldnt be able to balance & finish up. WHAT A WASTE. I think this semester g.p.a CMI. It is such a disappointing subject. On the other hand, there's CF2. I'm fine with the letter writing because i've ace it. SOMETHING THAT WILL PULL ME DOWN IS MY EFFING Grammar , editting , close passage and comprehension. Perhaps, the compre wasnt that bad...... LOL. It was direct. Lets put my subject aside for now, so my holidays have started so before school closes my teacher told us a very sad news. My own CA have already resigned from ITE COLLEGE EAST. I cried as per normal. I dont get it why good teacher have to leave. LOL Thanks to those year 1 students & some of my classmates that doesn't produce MC and giving my teacher a hard time. He is the only CA that knows us deeply. HE really knew what is the best for us. Shocking;y, my CA and i get to talked one on one. He really know hows my family background is. That just shocks me. He told me that i was a happy go lucky person; Actually thats true. I got no time to be that sad because that just waste of time. I used to swallow shit. Life is too short to handle shits. To think back, it is quite sad to think about it. I feel like crying again haha but it is okay, this is my last year in COLLEGE EAST. I had enough with this school already. When school reopen, a new teacher will take over and i felt really sad LOL. Whatever, i just gotta suck it up and deal with it. Life is unfair so we got to roll with it. Okay, enough with my depressing moments! I have upgraded in life LOL! I took my license like finally???! I passed my Basic Theory Test just by one mark! I am so happy ! However, next is FINAL THEORY TEST and i have yet to study! Maybe i shall start my revision by next week! I have yet to book a date to learn, I just need a break from studying but i will be back studying my FINAL THEORY! I just need my license asap though. i wanna upgrade my dearself real bad. Hopefully i could pass my FINAL THEORY then i will proceed to PRACTICAL ! I just can't wait for that moment baby! So basically, almost everyone in my family & my friends knows about me & him. We are like finally together ! After knowing him for months and months and we finally to decide that we should be together! So his '' EX contact '' knew about it and she decided to distance away. Okay, im sorry but i didnt plan to do this anyways. This wasnt my plan AT ALL. I told her the bigger picture. She said that she was okay with it. She just need time to get over with it and to accept that i am his already. She couldnt be mad about it. I wasn't the one who started all of this. It wasn't my or his fault at all. I hate putting blames on others because that just sucks. So basically, that one point of time, some girls in my class started to bad mouth about me behind my back? WOW Amazing huh. Thinking that i do not know any shit. What makes them think that i am the bad one? Saying to him that why is he not talking to her anymore????????????? LIKE HELLO Btch. Stop whatever you are doing and just proceed with your life. Tak mo nak jage tepi kain orang. You clearly do not know what is the real story between me & him. You just being a typical MALAY MINAH gossiping about me and him without knowing the truth? Haha so be it. You just wasting your breathe talking about me. Basically, i am not GRABBING people's love'. I am not using him or making that particular person to feel jealous. HEY. How old im i?If i have that bad intention i would have done it in the first place. Why would i do it now? Isn't that just plain stupid? Come on, me & him have the same mindset and personality. I really swear by this that i do not have any bad intention towards her because she is my own friend. Why must i do that to her? So maybe they will be thinking like ' Oh if he likes iffa why dont iffa reject him?'' urm. Listen here, if someone that likes me shows me endless effort and the actions that he did matched on what he said why should i reject him? If Allah swt, hands me someone special in my life, why would i rejected it? It just shows that i am ungrateful to have someone that is thoughtful and care about me. Honestly, they do not know me personally, i have a bad trauma in love. I have liked someone in the past and it just stops me from falling in love and i have apparently gave up in love back then. I told myself that i should just be single for the rest of my life instead but however, the love of my life came to step in & shown me what is love. He did not give up showing me that love is real and he is not like those other guys. His kind effort just make me fell in love with him even more. I won't reject someone that is sincere to his actions. Besides that i know he used to be someone lover but that wont stop me from not putting my full love on it.. He have a kind heart and kind soul towards his family members. This is my first time seeing someone i love have a beautiful soul. At times i wonder, what did i do to deserve this? Okay, i should stop now and head to bed because i have to wake up for my pre dawn meal later! So goodnight and i shall continue the next time instead. TATA!
