HIGHER NITEC YEAR 2 TOMORROW?

1/4/18
11:00PM

Hey everyone! My 5 month holiday has ended. I know i wont have this long ass bitch holiday! I miss working and doing nothing at home! How bored my life is. Sadly, im not working at cotton on anymore because they said that the store is full LOL k. On the other hand im thankful to Allah that ive given a chance to be in HIGHER NITEC! Year 2 !!! Ya Allah! He have heard my prayers and im thankful for that! I've planned to be in poly by 20 years old insha Allah! Im so scared if the subject that i will be taking will be dead hard. My friends told me about it... Year 2 is going to be a killer. Im DEAD. sooooooooo dead k. 😩
Ya Allah please ease my studies and may everything will go smoothly! Hopefully no dramas! Kalau tak drama je non stop! One year only i can do this ! Hopefully the group of friends and the environment is good. Lucky thing that tomorrow start at 1pm ! SO LUCKY OKAY! HEHE! sigh been sleeping late during the past 5 months and now i have to sleep early due to school how nice....................... Wish me luck guys for school! 1 hour journey to school such a hassle :') k bye zz..

January 2018

23/1/2018

8:22pm

Basically, i have already sent my course for my higher nitec. I picked Passanger Service Year 2 at AMK ok. I want to cry la cos Simei dont have. How like this. This means that i have to wake up 3 hours early to get ready.... I am not ready for it okay gengs. Simei je aku da lambat, ape lagi AMK. NAIICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I just hope i get into YEAR 2 Pax Service because it is the course that i wanted. I just hope there is cabin crew attachment. I JUST WANNA FLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY I DONT CAREE. However, if i get into year 2, it is going to be a massive stress because everyone in the classroom will know each other..... and i will feel left out. HAHAHA BUT ITSOKAY LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Tak mati. I dont know how to blend in :( How like this. I think i shall be alone in that case. If i got into year 2 higher nitec i will feel happy because i only left a few more months till attachment and graduation. NEXT POLYYYYYY HEHE! i think if i reach to poly i will cry!! Although it isnt easy to get into poly, i will try my best and study reallllll hard for higher nitec and get into poly. I hope i get into my dream job. I really hope to get into Pax service real bad although i know it is going to be 2 times harder but it is okay, life isnt going to be easy anyways. Last two days ago i just got my new computer like finally after 1 year my previous computer broke down. I think it is a sign for me not to use the computer too much lol. I have to control ya know lol. Next month it will be my graduation day, i dont know why but i am not looking forward to it like for real. I just dont know why at all lol. UGH. The thought of it like ' meh ' .  Or isit cus my result is abit unfair LOLOLOLOLOLOL but whatever. 

okie shall stop here .................. 

Its Only Jan

14/1/2018

11:20pm

Hey there, so far i have already chose my higher nitec course and it is at central... I just hope i get into PASSANGER SERVICE SO BAD. Hopefully i just got into central because it is year 2. The result date is end of feb which means it is nearing to my freaking birthday. It is okay i just hope and pray that i got into Passanger service year 2😐😐. Just hope nothing but the best. 

Recently, i dont know what is wrong with me. There is lots of problems coming and i felt quite pissed about it. I just felt unfair in life eversince last year incident about studies. Furthermore now it is about a person that i love. I felt unfair. He felt jealous if any guys chatted with me on phone or either follow some hot ang moh on IG. Little did he know that one of my guy friend wanted to meet me but i told him that nah itsok. However, this love of mine, didn't told me anything about his 'FRIEND' cakap je la girl bestfriend ape yang susah? That one point of time, he told me that he met his sec friends which i thought lelaki je la. Abeh dengan pompan eh.😑🙍 . Dia ingat aku bodoh tak tau pape la. What the fck i know everything. I just realised that he have lots of '' girlbestfriend  '' pe mepek pundek? Oh kau boleh? aku tk le la. OH OKAY. Nice. Beh that time dia cakap one of his friend apply license beh aku ingat laki la check check ppm. MM ok. That is why dia tak pakai phone sangat kat luar. LOL kmk. Aku tak kisah laa. Aku pon boleh la bobal ngn banyak laki. Isap suah la sial. I told him everything what i did ok. Like who talked to me and all. But he didnt told me anything. Nice. LIFE IS UNFAIR.

He didnt even told me that have a girlbestfriend till i found out by my fucking self? Nice. Tell me what im i suppose to feel? I keep finding out things that i shouldnt suppose to know. fck it ok? He is like so protective over his phone? like kimak lek ah sial. That is why i dont bother telling him anything about my life. Let him think. Aku penat ah. I dont know why but aku rase mcm aku bodoh bilang dia pasal hidup aku? I should stop.Aku malas. Why dont you tell me straight that it is your bestfriend? ape susah nye bodoh? I just felt so unfair. Tak pernah satu sen pon dia bilang aku. i just felt really unfair. Beh dia mcm tak kasi aku pakai too revealing? Abe dia suke n like ppm pakai bikini all that? 

APE LANCAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU sia??????????????????????????????? 

BYE LA TIRED

2018

4 January 2018
7:07pm

HAPPY NEW YEAR! How fast time flew by? In a blink of an eye i am already 19 years old! Kinda excited and not excited by it lol. I felt too old and it also marked my last year of being a teenager!! No more duit raya la like this. Must find own pocket money instead. On the other hand, i am quite upset with my GPA. Seeing my result i find it is unfair and bias. One of the subject which is the website thingy, i get C LOL. People copied and paste get an A. ERM ok. How awesome la my life. I am not looking forward for Higher Nitec. I have yet to pick my course. However i'm afriad if i couldnt get the course that ive been wanting to get which is Passanger Service. I just hope their internship is BEING A CABIN CREW. This is my chance to fly off far away. I just hope to be on flight one day. I will promise myself to work hard. It is okay if it takes time to go POLYTECHNIC. It is okay. I will enjoy myself studying in ITE. Life is getting harder and harder. Being an adult sucks. Money just flew away so quickly... I just can't wait to get my pay so i can shop with it. Too much going on with life and work. So far work is fineeeeeeeeeeeee but i dont know whether should i stop working? I feel like continuing  because COTTON ON MAN.. Discount shit mann. HEHEHE. Maybe i should tahan ah................... UGH i wanna rant here but nah im too tired..............

BYE