Helo.
30/12/15
I am forever typing this in the middle of the night. So, Basically , I've gotten into business course. Bam. Haha. You know that half hearted feeling. Somehow not ready and not looking forward to it as there is some of my old classmates that i will be seeing. I just wanna go Poly quickly you know .. but sadly i can't go to the short cut way. This eventually driving me mad. Argh! I just can't wait to end this 4 years of ITE. I will shout my lungs out. Ya Allah! Tolonglah hambamu di sini! I just hope that i could cope in Business because in N(A) I didn't learn anything about business so i hope it is gonna be an easy ride for me. I just hate competitions in class. You know... like who is the best ? Argh. I hate it okay... Gonna back off if there is a type of person that always love to compete. I know it is good to some people, but i hate people pouring intense remarks on me I'll get pissed off deeply.... I just hope there is a good clique. ITE College East :) Good thing is that it is near ! I'll be great full for it. However, i am starting school in 11 January onwards. Damn. How time fly past quickly!! I felt like i've entered Sec 1 and i met someone. lol. That someone who i've been seeing for the past 10years. THANKFULLY AIN'T SEEEEEING THAT PERSON ANYMORE!!!!! Wohoo. Haha. Okay so im gonna tawakal with it. I just hope my class is quite focus in studies.. I wanna score really well. I do not want to let my loved ones down anymore. I am sorry for them. I know i can't get into O levels but i just hope im gonna let you proud in ITE College. :/ I feel really depressed for not getting into O levels. Just sucks big time. Argh. But whatever! I know Allah up there knew what is good for me :) .. Thank you Allah for everything! <3 I know i cant get what i want , but where i am now i am already grateful! To be honest, this is the first time that they accept my first choice though. I am quite surprised :) :) Maybe it was luck. hehe. Alhamdulilah ! Okay i gtg . Gonna stop right here :) Goodnight lovelies xxxx
Love
I.N
11.56PM
Wednesday 30 December 2015
Tuesday 29 December 2015
Results Day
Hi.
30/11/15
It is getting late, haha. Basically , Today is the result and i am so out of words. 9 am it will probably announce my result and i have to check it. LOL how troublesome it can be. Particularly, i am not ready for school or friends either. I would rather be solo tho but i need friends to motivate me to study. Dang it man. To be very honest, i do not really like my course. I am really lost for words. No one could inarticulate my actions. Tongue-Tied for words. Why im i just so stupid ?
Whatever. I felt really apprehensive about going to College . Ok. Do you guys have this feeling of people somehow looking down on you but not in an obvious way? Hah. I've been in that position before. It happen in my SIL house hah lol. Basically this aunty somehow asking me ' So are you schooling ? '
So i answered ' um currently i am waiting for my results '
That aunty replied ' Oh, O levels ? '
' HAH no. Luck wasnt on my side as i need to minus 1 point '
AND WANNA KNOW WHAT GUYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Her face changes :) :) :) :) . Lol. So ? Hah typical i knew it. Looking down on me hah? Just because i am going to ITE you are going to looking down on me? Wonderful, splendid. Oh, i know, your family is really blessed with smart ass brains that went to OLEVELS and then to study universities in overseas. Ah i see aunty. I was really puzzled at that time. Pathetic much! and yea to my SIL when i say that i am picking Business for my course she seems different and ask me ' WHY BUSINESS??????????! '
And im like ' huh why cant i ? Is it a bad course? ' Hm please don't give me the ' WHY' because things changes now :) Then what type of courses you wanna me to go? The type of courses that i am not interested in ? -.- You have not seen the criteria. I just don't get it with some other people. Why can't you just be happy for me ? I've been pushing myself hard till i've gotten sick during math exam and no one knows. The suck thing is that the math N level happened to be in the afternoon paper. How suckish can it be but i have to push it through. Is just pissing me off in this two weeks. 9 hours time it will be my results. Bismillah. Hopefully it will be a good one for me because i have been waiting for it but however , i am really depressed by spending it four years in ITE. Hah. Argh. Thinking about four years just make me feel so agitated by it.
Gtg.
Love
I.N
12.59am
30/11/15
It is getting late, haha. Basically , Today is the result and i am so out of words. 9 am it will probably announce my result and i have to check it. LOL how troublesome it can be. Particularly, i am not ready for school or friends either. I would rather be solo tho but i need friends to motivate me to study. Dang it man. To be very honest, i do not really like my course. I am really lost for words. No one could inarticulate my actions. Tongue-Tied for words. Why im i just so stupid ?
Whatever. I felt really apprehensive about going to College . Ok. Do you guys have this feeling of people somehow looking down on you but not in an obvious way? Hah. I've been in that position before. It happen in my SIL house hah lol. Basically this aunty somehow asking me ' So are you schooling ? '
So i answered ' um currently i am waiting for my results '
That aunty replied ' Oh, O levels ? '
' HAH no. Luck wasnt on my side as i need to minus 1 point '
AND WANNA KNOW WHAT GUYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Her face changes :) :) :) :) . Lol. So ? Hah typical i knew it. Looking down on me hah? Just because i am going to ITE you are going to looking down on me? Wonderful, splendid. Oh, i know, your family is really blessed with smart ass brains that went to OLEVELS and then to study universities in overseas. Ah i see aunty. I was really puzzled at that time. Pathetic much! and yea to my SIL when i say that i am picking Business for my course she seems different and ask me ' WHY BUSINESS??????????! '
And im like ' huh why cant i ? Is it a bad course? ' Hm please don't give me the ' WHY' because things changes now :) Then what type of courses you wanna me to go? The type of courses that i am not interested in ? -.- You have not seen the criteria. I just don't get it with some other people. Why can't you just be happy for me ? I've been pushing myself hard till i've gotten sick during math exam and no one knows. The suck thing is that the math N level happened to be in the afternoon paper. How suckish can it be but i have to push it through. Is just pissing me off in this two weeks. 9 hours time it will be my results. Bismillah. Hopefully it will be a good one for me because i have been waiting for it but however , i am really depressed by spending it four years in ITE. Hah. Argh. Thinking about four years just make me feel so agitated by it.
Gtg.
Love
I.N
12.59am
Monday 28 December 2015
Just Started
So hi .
29 Dec 2015
Basically, i am thinking of making a blog. As you know 2015 is leaving behind and when 2016 strikes, my life will change. You know , i am actually quite depressed when i have gotten my N level results. I may look happy at the outside but i am not pretty happy. 19 points is a maximum hit to sec 5 and guess how much i get? A Hilarious 20. I really don't know how to react when i saw that number. I quickly ran out from school and just calm myself out. Theres too much emotion that nobody could understand. Why cant they just use CCA points to minus off? How cruel can life be. Yeah i know life sucks and we have to deal with it. 17 December 2015 is the most horrible feeling i could imagine. While typing this i am literally in tears as i cant take it with the emotions. I dont know whether i could reach to the career path that i am deadly wanting to go. I just keep the sadness in me whenever i am with my loved ones because there is no point for me to rant to them. Things like this couldn't be changed. dah hakikat nak buat ape. I have to accept with all my heart. 20 Dec i submitted my ITE course. Lol. I hated all the courses. The courses that i am into is at CCK and i lived at Pasir Ris. Like BRUH. So i felt dishearten till now as the first course that i picked is Business. I have to spend like 4 YEARS in ITE. I dont know but that just saddens me real bad. Theres no short cut for me. Gosh i have to stop this tears. I just dont wanna spend 4 years in ITE. Sigh. I dont know if you guys out there has the same feeling as me but it just sucks. My mind is unstable. I just couldn't eat. Thinking about my Points and my course just brought me to Dismay. Expect the unexpected. Worst still , tomorrow is 30th Dec. That date is where i know what is my result. I am not that prepared or looking forward to it. You know what i wish ? Getting A text to go to sec 5. But Na'ah. I get a bad headache last week maybe because i was too worried and too upset. Theres fear and trepidation in me. Too anxious. I just wanna clear my mind off and just let out here on my blog. Lol. i have no time to write on books but i am comfortable typing. :p. So okay , GTG . i just hope time pass fly quickly ... Till next time ...
Love .
I.N
12.50am / 29/12/15
29 Dec 2015
Basically, i am thinking of making a blog. As you know 2015 is leaving behind and when 2016 strikes, my life will change. You know , i am actually quite depressed when i have gotten my N level results. I may look happy at the outside but i am not pretty happy. 19 points is a maximum hit to sec 5 and guess how much i get? A Hilarious 20. I really don't know how to react when i saw that number. I quickly ran out from school and just calm myself out. Theres too much emotion that nobody could understand. Why cant they just use CCA points to minus off? How cruel can life be. Yeah i know life sucks and we have to deal with it. 17 December 2015 is the most horrible feeling i could imagine. While typing this i am literally in tears as i cant take it with the emotions. I dont know whether i could reach to the career path that i am deadly wanting to go. I just keep the sadness in me whenever i am with my loved ones because there is no point for me to rant to them. Things like this couldn't be changed. dah hakikat nak buat ape. I have to accept with all my heart. 20 Dec i submitted my ITE course. Lol. I hated all the courses. The courses that i am into is at CCK and i lived at Pasir Ris. Like BRUH. So i felt dishearten till now as the first course that i picked is Business. I have to spend like 4 YEARS in ITE. I dont know but that just saddens me real bad. Theres no short cut for me. Gosh i have to stop this tears. I just dont wanna spend 4 years in ITE. Sigh. I dont know if you guys out there has the same feeling as me but it just sucks. My mind is unstable. I just couldn't eat. Thinking about my Points and my course just brought me to Dismay. Expect the unexpected. Worst still , tomorrow is 30th Dec. That date is where i know what is my result. I am not that prepared or looking forward to it. You know what i wish ? Getting A text to go to sec 5. But Na'ah. I get a bad headache last week maybe because i was too worried and too upset. Theres fear and trepidation in me. Too anxious. I just wanna clear my mind off and just let out here on my blog. Lol. i have no time to write on books but i am comfortable typing. :p. So okay , GTG . i just hope time pass fly quickly ... Till next time ...
Love .
I.N
12.50am / 29/12/15
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