YAY END OF YEAR 2

5 Decmeber 2017
10:15PM

Like finally that ive ended my Nitec Life!!!!!!!!!!! Actually it ended 30 november LOL. That was my last exam. Basically year 2 nitec was hectic to be very honest. I felt like my teacher is bias LOL? To be very honest too bias ah. It was one of my website subject and he know what type of grades to give to people that " copy paste " their website? haha buat lawak la nak kasi A kat orang gini. I did my website from scratch without having downloading shits from INTERNET. LIKE I LITERALLY WENT TO MY SISTER PLACE TO DO MY WEBSITE TILL LATE AT NIGHT AND MY LAPTOP IS BEING A FCKING BIAAATCH?! like why the hell is my teacher giving A to those didnt did their website by scratch? i cried though when i heard about it. It is like my hard ass work i wont get an A? Like seriously??????????????????? Ah whatever. Besides, my Elements of business. That biaaatch is a biaaatch really. I dont know what grade i will get for the end of year becauseeeeeeee.. i did anyhow LOL. i totally gave up with my work hahaha! I know that my gpa gonna be suck.

Fortunately, i get a job at Cotton On as a part timer! My contracts end around February WHICH i am happy lol. Luckily theres a contract if no contract im gonna cry. Been covering up people asses since saturday. This week gonna be hectic for me because im going to work for 4 freaking days!! Including saturday and sunday! GILEXGILE. Kinda feel frustrated with my manager ah. I told him that i could work tuesday wednesday  friday & saturday. He go freaking say ' ok friday saturday sunday'  like erm? SUNDAY? WHEN THE FCK I SAY SUNDAY? LOL IM SO PISSED. TAK KAN SETAKAT AKU TENGAH HOLIDAY KAU MAIN PILIH AKU PULAK EH LOL EH PLEASE LA I HAVE A FAMILY AND FRIENDS. UGH. Next week im gonna plot 3 DAYS. I dont care lol. Gasak aku la. Gile sia. Bile orang lain nak try keje sana kau tak bagi. Tapi whatever la eh. Ugh i just cant wait for my gaji to be in already because i need to spend!!! I also need to get a new laptop! because lol this laptop sucks big time. Adios till next time

BYE!

October

8/OCT/17
11:45pm

How amazing that time went by so quickly? I'm left with 7 weeks with school and that is the end of my NITEC Year 2 ! I just couldnt wait to graduate. Too much going on in school!! Exams coming up, Projects are pilling up and presentation. ugh too much to juggle but it is okay i am just going to wing it anyways hahaha! I just cant wait to get over and done with my Dreamweaver. Gosh, it is damn hard honey. I feel like dying okay. After doing dreamweaver we have to present like wtf broooo ?? Baby boo what are you doing manz HAHA. 3 weeks left to submission and all i did was the home page LOL. I dont even have dreamweaver at home so like i have difficulties LOL. However, i didnt expect to pass my Elements of Business TEST. Theres a down side about it , so basically, my subject teacher whatsapped us on those who failed and who PASSED. Sadly, my name was on the list and i was so mad and upset with myself because my close friends said that they did not understand and dont even study hard for it and guess what two of them in the list of '' GREAT JOB" wow so much of not understanding the topic. I studied way harder but i failed. lol. It is okay la life goes on. I felt soooo disheartened you know. I felt so down at that point because it was my first time being in the list of failures? Two weeks being mad about it and last week i get to know that i passed. 😴😴😴😑😑😐😏😒😑 how pissed i was LOL. Two weeks of holiday my mood ruined. Last minute get to know that i actually passed. Haiyo i just cant wait to get over and done with school! I just need my holiday already! PRETTY PLEAAAASE! Gotta work hard and try to aim higher nitec year 2. I just wanna get into poly reaaaaaaal soon!!!!!!!!!! Ya Allah kuatkan la semangat ku!!!!!!

Basically, now i am waiting to learn my practical driving but my dad and bro aint helping me to get a private instructor?? but they are dying wanting me to pass? How eh hmm. Pepandai la korang. I just can't wait to get my Driving License ASAP. Before 20 pretty please!!!!!!!!!! Ya Allah, i just hope i could get a reliable driving instructor and able to pass my Traffic Police! amin!!!!

Gotta goooooooooooooooooooo bye! continue next time eh... byebye!

Hey September

3/8/17
11:37pm

How amazing that it is already september? Time flies real fast this year and i am SHOOK. Four more month till 2018! I am so stoked! Apparently today is my First Year Anniversary with Him <3 So blessed and thankful that we totally stayed strong.. Sadly we didnt celebrate la... Focusing on exams. September is forever the month of exam.. I am so not ready. Especially Friday  paper.. tawakal je la dengan tu paper. I have no interest like legit for Elements of Business. LIKE WHY ?? WHY MUST IT ExiST??????????????????????????????? I do not know how to revise for that ???????????????????????????????????????????????? i shall just see how my fate goes.
BACK TO SCHOOL AFTER 5 DAYS OF HOLS LOL... BUT I CANT WAIT FOR NEXT WWEEK BECAUSE I AM SURPRISING HIMMMMMM <3 HEHE BYEEEEEEEE SEE YAAA BLOG.

tHE ENDZZZzzz

Cant BELIEVE!

10/8/17
10:52pm

Heyy! Time flies real fast this year and now it is already August! 4 more month till 2018! My dearself will turn 19! Oh my.. Next year will be my last year being a teenager???? LIKE WHAAAAT have i done during my teenage years?! Currently, school is getting tougher bleghh.. I dont know how i am able to cope for this semester. The subject that will be tested is Elements Of Business and Business Event Organisation. This two is a big KICK. EOB is a pain in the ass. I dont know how i am able to memorize all of this into my head. I do not know where to start either. I am so lost. I paid attention to class and forcing myself to understand the topic. I tried to like the subject too LOL.. I just hope that i could pass this semester. I WANNA ACE WELL. LIKE REALLY WELL. Ending of year 2 already and i am so EXCITED YET SCARED at the same time..... I would not know where im i going to after this. Ya Allah, please ease the test and may i maintained my GPA ! I will try my best to work hard and be more hardworking. Im so scared for November Exams, im scared that i couldnt maintained my GPA. Besides, both of the subject require memorizing lol. IT IS TOO MUCH. However, ive gone through history + social studies so i should be able to memorize everything lol.

I just wanna graduate soon. i just cant wait to get out from this dramatic ass class. I couldn't take it no more. Too many dramas. I just hope when i step in to the higher nitec world i wont encounter this any more because this just too much lol. HAD ENOUGH. I just wanna graduate sooooooooon! Next year February is when i am going to graduate ! I JUST CANT WAITTTT WOOOOHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! lol okay i think i shall be back after my September Exam and express my feelings about it lol.
ok byeeeeeeeeeeee

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June Holiday!!!!!

7/6/17
11:36PM

Hey blog! It's been so long since ive blog about my life. So far, whats happening in my life right now so far so good! I just wanna say that i have finally get OVER WITH ACCOUNTING like finally! Been waiting for this day till i'm over and done with it! Two hours doing the accounting paper is a NO NO. I didn't get to finish up & check apparently. However, it doesnt matter to me right now because at least i did try lol... I cried after the paper LOLLLL because i was so disappointed with myself so much because i did so much practice and i couldnt be able to balance & finish up. WHAT A WASTE. I think this semester g.p.a CMI. It is such a disappointing subject. On the other hand, there's CF2. I'm fine with the letter writing because i've ace it. SOMETHING THAT WILL PULL ME DOWN IS MY EFFING Grammar , editting , close passage and comprehension. Perhaps, the compre wasnt that bad...... LOL. It was direct. Lets put my subject aside for now, so my holidays have started so before school closes my teacher told us a very sad news. My own CA have already resigned from ITE COLLEGE EAST. I cried as per normal. I dont get it why good teacher have to leave. LOL Thanks to those year 1 students & some of my classmates that doesn't produce MC and giving my teacher a hard time. He is the only CA that knows us deeply. HE really knew what is the best for us. Shocking;y, my CA and i get to talked one on one. He really know hows my family background is. That just shocks me. He told me that i was a happy go lucky person; Actually thats true. I got no time to be that sad because that just waste of time. I used to swallow shit. Life is too short to handle shits. To think back, it is quite sad to think about it. I feel like crying again haha but it is okay, this is my last year in COLLEGE EAST. I had enough with this school already. When school reopen, a new teacher will take over and i felt really sad LOL. Whatever, i just gotta suck it up and deal with it. Life is unfair so we got to roll with it. Okay, enough with my depressing moments! I have upgraded in life LOL! I took my license like finally???! I passed my Basic Theory Test just by one mark! I am so happy ! However, next is FINAL THEORY TEST and i have yet to study! Maybe i shall start my revision by next week! I have yet to book a date to learn, I just need a break from studying but i will be back studying my FINAL THEORY! I just need my license asap though. i wanna upgrade my dearself real bad. Hopefully i could pass my FINAL THEORY then i will proceed to PRACTICAL ! I just can't wait for that moment baby! So basically, almost everyone in my family & my friends knows about me & him. We are like finally together ! After knowing him for months and months and we finally to decide that we should be together! So his '' EX contact '' knew about it and she decided to distance away. Okay, im sorry but i didnt plan to do this anyways. This wasnt my plan AT ALL. I told her the bigger picture. She said that she was okay with it. She just need time to get over with it and to accept that i am his already. She couldnt be mad about it. I wasn't the one who started all of this. It wasn't my or his fault at all. I hate putting blames on others because that just sucks. So basically, that one point of time, some girls in my class started to bad mouth about me behind my back? WOW Amazing huh. Thinking that i do not know any shit. What makes them think that i am the bad one? Saying to him that why is he not talking to her anymore????????????? LIKE HELLO Btch. Stop whatever you are doing and just proceed with your life. Tak mo nak jage tepi kain orang. You clearly do not know what is the real story between me & him. You just being a typical MALAY MINAH gossiping about me and him without knowing the truth? Haha so be it. You just wasting your breathe talking about me. Basically, i am not GRABBING people's love'. I am not using him or making that particular person to feel jealous. HEY. How old im i?If i have that bad intention i would have done it in the first place. Why would i do it now? Isn't that just plain stupid? Come on, me & him have the same mindset and personality. I really swear by this that i do not have any bad intention towards her because she is my own friend. Why must i do that to her? So maybe they will be thinking like ' Oh if he likes iffa why dont iffa reject him?'' urm. Listen here, if someone that likes me shows me endless effort and the actions that he did matched on what he said why should i reject him? If Allah swt, hands me someone special in my life, why would i rejected it? It just shows that i am ungrateful to have someone that is thoughtful and care about me. Honestly, they do not know me personally, i have a bad trauma in love. I have liked someone in the past and it just stops me from falling in love and i have apparently gave up in love back then. I told myself that i should just be single for the rest of my life instead but however, the love of my life came to step in & shown me what is love. He did not give up showing me that love is real and he is not like those other guys. His kind effort just make me fell in love with him even more. I won't reject someone that is sincere to his actions. Besides that i know he used to be someone lover but that wont stop me from not putting my full love on it.. He have a kind heart and kind soul towards his family members. This is my first time seeing someone i love have a beautiful soul. At times i wonder, what did i do to deserve this? Okay, i should stop now and head to bed because i have to wake up for my pre dawn meal later! So goodnight and i shall continue the next time instead. TATA!

March

12:18am
12/3/17

It is the month of my birthday! LOL. Over already lah!! 1 March 99' was my birthday! Finally 18! I am so delighted with my besties surprising me! It was such a sweet feelings! I do not know what to feel anymore! LOVE THEM SO MUCH! I felt like a child receiving presents from my family and friends! PERKS of being a last child so i feel like a baby lah hor. Last two weeks ago i wasnt feeling that great because i was sick. It was the longest feeling ever... Stress seh. Ok la was stress over IAC! But in the end i passed LOL. I do know how well i did but itsok. On monday is my exam. Im not even ready at ALL. It is too rushing but it is okay i will try my best to excel in my exams :) :)

Sooooooooooo... My siblings already know about me & him. So paiseh okay. Damn PAISEH. Im not even ready for anything and they are teasing me :) It is okay ah as long i love him ah ok. Most of the people i knew, knows about me & him. Ok It was quite obvious but im not the type of girl that will steal a girls man away. LOL no. I do not steal him away from him. Please know the full story before judging. Or have the initiative to ask before assume shits. People keep asking him ' ARE YOU GUYS TGT?' ERR, like ya ? Why are you guys so curious :')) Keep asking the same question over and over again. BUT ITSOK! Before my birthday, it was my first time going out with him LOL. I was so nervous though because im a virgin for going out for a date with a guy. Ya ya call me kental whatever you want because im not the type of girl that will randomly take any guys. People will think that ive been so close to him early this year. BUT NO. We have been talking since last year September or Late August as i remember his picture was on my phone..... ?? Like since when it saved???? We dont even know the exact date that we officially together & also the date that we first started to talk?????? I wasnt that sure but it is okay......

This picture below was taken yesteday. We just finished our revision so we decided to lepak laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. So tired you know. Side note, actually our legs are tired so we coincidentally wore the same shoes!!!!!!! LOL but mine is the full black LOL. I just wanna spend more time & memories with him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU LAH!

End of January

28/1/2017
2:19pm

It is going to be the end of january 2017! Had lots of commitment to make and i have no time to blog about what is happening. Since i have the time right now, why not i just say it out. Basically, i tried a part time job! As a promoter at Giant Tampines. It was a tiring and a boring one. Working alone just sucks. However, the people there are superb ! They are so friendly! How amazing! They are so easy going. Last week was insane, people are so cheesy with me which i felt so weird about it. Apparently, Theres this secondary kid asked me why is the Jackfruit is sweet. So i decided to answer ' because theres honey in it' WHAT A QUESTION BRO? . But he answered ' no, because you are sweet' . I was stunned and lost. HAHAHAHAHA masih ah nak cheesy dengan aku! I just replied with a straight face ' so do you wanna buy?' he just walked off. Hmm Boleh la. SO, theres another promoter which is a guy came to me and asked whether i am new, so obviously i just answer what he asked because i lazy to talk to any guys. While we were talking , he decided to ask about my instagram. UHHH boy? Please dont be a gatal freak. So freaky!!!! Thankfully ive stopped working haha. Lots of weird customers. Overall, my working experience was ok but i just hate it when im the only one that is working and my boss keep on disappearing. LIKE ok, i know you are the boss but please just don't go anywhere you like and you still can sleep :')) Last week sunday was the worst, i had to do closing ALL BYSELF, My back bone just couldnt take it anymore. Too much heavy stuff to handle. BOXES & TABLES ( made from real wood ) :-) dead. 7 hours of work seems forever lol. I got no one to talk to during work. My boss decided to go back to KL on a SUNDAY. I was left alone. HOW PISSED I WAS. BUT i tried to stay calm and not to curse. LOL. The freezer at the back of giant is like congested. HEAVY & FULL. The pay is yummy though. $8/hr as a promoter.

STUDIES
 So, Accounting had started. It was a hell of a ride. I am like telling myself to like the subject. I enjoyed doing T accounts but not DOUBLE ENTRY. As the topics goes by it makes my head go crazy. WHAT ON EARTH. Apparently, studying accounts you have to use your common sense but sadly common sense in me isnt in studies :;) HOW SAD. I tried my best to revise and understand the topic. I just need extra practice so that i could excel in my studies. I do not want my GPA to drop. I am at the right track on maintaining 3.5. Once it dropped. Goodbye to me. It is going to be tough for me to get into higher nitec year 2. I am really determined to get into Higher Nitec Year 2. I do not want to spend 4 years in ITE because it just feels like im in secondary school.3 years is enough for me. YA ALLAH, PLEASE HELP ME! :( .

DAY 1 YEAR 2

9/1/2017
6:31pm

Alhamdulilah, first day was okay. Draggy to school but it was ok! Basically, my CA told me that he was proud of me and he is shock to see that my GPA improved real well. He also said that if i maintained this GPA , i could go to higher nitec year 2 ! INSYA'ALLAH! I told him that i really aimed to go to Higher Nitec Year 2 next year. I want to work real hard this year. I do not care about any shits. I really hope i could cope with everything. AMIN.

I felt very uneasy these days. Having doubts with him. Im not that happy as before. I do not know why he seems different ? I dont get it. I just hope everything will be at ease. I hate being too stressed up & keep thinking about him ? I feel stupid? Does he even think about me ? I always felt like crying every now and then but i tried to stayed strong. I do not want to show my weak side. Im afraid to confess. Im just tired to continue the convo? I feel stupid ??????????????? I feel so down...... Im afraid to let go about this to anyone.... But it is alright .... Im just fine...

2017

6/1/17
7:10pm



Happy 2017 ! May this year will be a blessed one! It is a crucial year for me as i am entering YEAR 2 ! As i am typing this, i am going back to school real soon which sucks but what to do. I am not looking forward to study. It is such a wonderful feeling thinking that next year i am going to graduate to a NITEC Business Cert LOL. I AM SO EXCITED! I hope i could enter to Higher Nitec Year 2. I am going to study hard and focus in class. I do not want to make a fool anymore. I am looking forward to enter a polytechnic ! I hope one day i could go to a university.... I am dying to get a degree. INSYA'ALLAH!

Gosh, two more days till school and my body clock just sucks. I cant !!!!!!!!!! MONDAY STARTS 8AM. 8 FREAKING AM. AKU DA LA BANGUN KUL 11AM. HMM TKYA LA EH. Tomorrow is my last day sleeping late. I am going to miss my bed and my home. I miss doing nothing at home. I miss staring at my laptop and my computer. HAHAHA OH MY GOD. I want to cry. I dont want to go back to school. SCHOOL SUCKS. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. chey. no la. I want to be a cabin crew i make sure get that dream job I am dying to fly off from here. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. 2017 PLEASE BE A GOOD YEAR. AND GOOD BYE.