2nd Semester Result

24/12/16
12:45pm

Apparently , yesterday was my result. Alhamdulilah Syukur Kepada Allah S.w.t ! I didnt expect that i could get 3.7 gpa! It was a total shock!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!This is like a miracle ! I thought i was a lil dumb lol. My hard work pays off! I am so happy for myself. This is the first time that i am proud of myself for 17 years of my life. How SADDENING ! I have to work extra hard next year because it is a crucial year for me. I just hope i could get 3.5 and above. I'm determined to go to a Second Year Higher Nitec then i'll proceed to POLY! Booyah! It is the END of my YEAR 1 NITEC! Year 2 please be good to me okay.....

I do not know why is my heart gets a little worried these days. I do not know whether it is because of him or me. I have lots of thoughts going on my mind right now but i do not know how to express it in words. You feel me? My words are crumble into one. I'm confused. I am abit afraid of loosing a guy like him. Like i really do. Another side of me says why im i facing this? Why im i developing feelings for somebody? Why im i in this position of LOVE? I am not prepared for hearbreaks.. I get a little frustrated when i think about it because i dont think people would be able to understand what i am feeling. I can't complain that much because this is my fate already. Maybe Allah knows whats the best for me & He want me to learn how to love somebody....... I do not know whether is this guy a lesson or a blessings. I hope it is a blessings for me to love for the rest of my life one day. If it is a lesson, i think i am not interested in knowing other guys anymore. Right now, i do not know why i am stressing on this. I AM GETTING A LIL FRUSTRATED. I have to stop sighing and appreciate what is in front of me. I keep having ' TSKKKKKKKKK, Hais, Ugh' In me. Like WHY??  Its okay i just be patient and have faith..........................................

Overall

18/12/16
1:17pm

First of all i do not know what type of title i should put. Mind me. I do not know what should i feel. Should i give love a chance? I really do not know whether i should. I just feel like we have something really common. I do not want anyone know about me and him. Except the one that im close with. Talking to him just really make me smile. This is just an unexpected feeling from me because i am the type of person wont fall that someone that fast and trust all the words that he said. It is hard for me to like that someone. Why now.. I do not want to loose him. What if one day he did leave me or vise versa. LOL. I am not ready for any heartbreaking moments because i have no time for that. To me it is just a waste of time and energy. I could use that time and energy to do something much fun. What if the family couldnt accept me one day? LOL. HAHHA aku ni da la gile, once orang tak suke aku, aku straight to the point je. On a serious note, what if ? Theres aloooot of what if going on in my mind. What if the girl that he used to contact me will hate me. What is her reaction gonna be like? What if she thinks that i am trying to snatch away ? ( lol whereby i do not have any intention of snatching away because i don't do that shit i'ma chill ass bitch) What if she thinks that i do not have any other guy to chat with? What if she going to think differently about me.. Ugh. What i'm i going to do? Ya Allah , please attached her with someone soon. I got the huge feeling that she still love him. I dont think she really moved on. Mampos la. Why just why. I am scared to confess my love towards him. He could love me when i couldnt love myself. I actually still have the phobia of confessing. What if it is still the same answer when i get it from my old crush. I just cant stop thinking about it without shedding a tears. Ya Allah, you know how i felt deeply. Ease it for me to handle it. I just really love him. I couldn't afford to lose him one day. He is like the one that i am finding. I am still confuse with my own feelings on whether i should like him? I do actually but i do not know. Words circulating my mind. Im just really confused........................ :(

Hey December

2/12/2016
9:06pm

Helo! It is finally december! A break like finally! Exam are over! Time past really fast this year. It feel like just yesterday i entered ITE! Next year i am already in YEAR 2 ! It is my final year of being a nitec student ! How exciting. LOL. I just couldnt wait to enter poly because why not! I just hope i could enter Higher Nitec year 2. I wanna concentrate real well in class. No playing games. No jokes. No disturbing of teachers. Speaking of which, i will still disturb and fight with my lecturer. Being a business student is quite stressful because theres lot of things to focus on. However, next year subject is going to be a pain in the ass though. Accounting siak. Shit bro. Is just i know or i dont know. Actually ive wanting to join POA class in Sec 3 but sadly by one MARK i just couldnt join. It is okay tkde rezeki. Maybe next year is my chance to study Accounting? Which i believe it is going to be hard. May Allah Guide Me! Ya Allah!

I have things going on my mind right now. Apparently, my siblings already knew about HIM. It is just getting annoying for them to disturb me. They said why did i chose him instead of any other malay guys out there. All i could say to them is '' I don't want '' . I dont mean to be rude but is just a part of me. I used to believe ' Right people, wrong timing' . However, i do not believe it now. If Allah have already pass to us someone to love us whole heartedly and stay in our life why would we push them away. It just shows we do not appreciate what is in front for us. I admit that i was once that person who pushed others that loved me. I feel bad by doing that because i just push away A person that wanting to know me. To be very honest, i was a bit confused when he started to chat with me. Abit skeptical about it. I feel like giving up at that point of time but my heart asked me to give him a chance. That one day he could say something to me. I was not entirely convinced with my choice but He made me so happy and we have the same mindset especially in humor. I just hope he meant on what he say by not leaving and will not feel bored because i have yet to tell him on what i felt about love. I actually have given up. I do not believe in loving others but when he came into my life making me smile and make me feel something else just excites me. Whenever i feel like pushing him away i just can't. Theres something in him makes me really excited. I just hope he will be the last for me. On the serious note, not everyone know what is happening between us. I told the one that i fully trusted on. I just hope he is a blessing and the one that i love one day. Ive always think that will he willing to convert sincerely one day? I will definitely keep it lowkey as possible. I will make everyone wonders who im i with. I guess if one day i am ready to show who i am with. I will. For now we are just friends. He doesnt know that i like him but if he feels that way then he is right.. I am just afraid to confess. I have this fear of confessing because of that stupid crush of mine. I just got to be strong one day to confess. May i have faith in me.. Ugh. I just need to know him more.... I hope he will stay by my side...

g g

10/11/16
10:18pm

OMG HELO. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i am developing a crushhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh la. Its been a long time ive never felt this way before eversince my ex crush problem. It was 9 years ago i fell in love. AND NOW. LIKE LITERALLY NOW. i felt love. I try not to put my hopes high right now. At first i hated this guy that i am chatting right now. I legit hated him. I dont even face him before. I DONT KNOW WHAT COMES TO ME THAT HE ACTUALLY WON MY HEART HAHAHAHHAHA. I think i makan salah ubat kot. I am scared to confess my love towards him. I mean, i am scared to tell him that i like him. I hate this la. I scared i get called unnecessarily. His eyes and his smile made me fall in love. It was such a long time i felt this way i swear. I feel like crying. Is just that something in him made me fell inlove. I cant find the answer. However, he is not the same race and religion as me which make me abittttttttt sad. BUTTT ITSOK. AHHH IM INLOVE OK PEOPLE UHGHGHGHG. I should be holding myself back but i cannot help it anymore. I am so so inlove. WHY NOW! Why not next year!!! ok bye

control

28/10/16
12.01

Oh my. I should be sleeping i'll be schooling later. Ugh. SHit . I must not fall for him like honestly. SHIEEIT. i can feel that my love for him is getting stronger but im pulling myself back and not to fall for him. Im just scared ok, GG la. Ugh. I dont wanna have another crush. Face time with him HAHAAH AND I CANT STOP SMILING SIAAA SHEEEEIT. iffa stop pls. UGH, I must not fall for his words la. i must know him well. It is just 10 month i knew him and i feel like i known him forever. NO IFFA. somebody need to hold me back.Right person but wrong timing... you feel me??????? ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
whyyyyyyyyyyyyy. the way he smile n laugh HOLY MAK DIA HAHAHAHA I CANT TAKE IT HAHAAHAHAHHA SO CUTE LA SIA. BUT NO IFFA NO. DONT IFFA PLS. KAU TU MCM PKM PERANGAI ON OFF. Apparently, he just another version of me though. argh i cant laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. i must stop this feeling. UGHHH I CAN FEEL THE LOVE RUSH SIA AUHFENEFWNRW. F THIS SHEITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
 I GO SLEEEEEEEEEEP AH SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Fine Dining

22/10/16
12:13am

So yesterday, i had fine dining. It was help at Clark Quay @ royal palm. The place was quite class but squeezyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Like orang kahwin already. HAIYAAA, i did not win the mr miss poise. HAIS. I suck in life la. Aku da beat up face, pakai proper masih tk dapat chosen. It is okay la. I suck alot. I suck in love, i suck in this.Maybe i literally suck. The winner pakai relax sia....................... UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH my hard work forever not paid off la. i should just get the fck out from here man.

The food at royal palm last warning eh. aku kat rumah boleh masak satu meal sial. HAHAHAHAH
so weird okay the meal. i can cry.


ok bye ah

What do you mean?

19/10/16
9:43pm

I do not know where to start. I guess my crush for him is gone? I feel stupid. I tried to be strong whenever he said ' doesnt mean if i chat with that person, i like what' . Ok your point? Little do you know that i had a lil crush on you. I am inlove with your humor and openess. Why in the first place you are whatsapping me? Wah shit la. I hate this feeling. It is okay. I guess this is my repayment. Padan muke aku la rejecting people. I feel like crying because whenever i lowkey about my feelings the particular person will show his innerself. Ugh, i am so speechless ok. I used to like this guy back then and it just break into pieces. This time round? It breaks me again. Im i not good enough for love? It is ok, maybe i am not fated to be in love. It is okay. :)

Fam?

16/10/16
12:30am

Hah. I am forever ranting at this timing. I dont know why but i am so pissed ah. Fck family? Hiding things away from me? People be like ' maybe surprise for you' haha. FYI, my family is not the type will surprise the fuck out of me. They dont play that shit. The only person that will get something that i want which is a phone is only my DAD. Other then that, NO. This is just too much. Telling outsiders secrets but not me? Telling the rest of my family member but not me? What the fuck sial? This is just unacceptable. I dont play hiding things shit. Be straight up with me. You ask me to be your bridesmate but my fucking job is only to take you food and deliver it to your room and outsider people is able to follow you to take photoshoot? Knn ccb la perangai. THANKS ah sial. You just dont know how i feel. The person that will follow you to the hotel is not me. hah fuck can la can. Maybe i do not want to be your bridesmate la. I think i would rather sit one side n shake my fcking legs off. You reach home and still have the cheek to say ' i told everyone except you' AHHH CAN LAAA. EH my life so shiok ah at times. Best treatment sial. Do you guys wanna know something? I just wish to MIA one day. It was one of my bucket list. I cant wait to travel. I cant wait to MIA from everyone. I know i wasnt meant to be in this Country & Family. They dont need me. So why im i here? I just cant wait to finish up my studies and just travel away from here. If they convinced me to stay or come back to Singapore i will not hesitate to say no. I do not care whatever the weather is happening in Singapore. You guys neglected me. Hurt my feelings without knowing. I do not know why people are hurting my feelings. I am so tired of staying strong. My temper these days just snapped in a split seconds these days. My patience that i hold on is already gone. I just can't keep quiet and let it happen but this makes me snapped so badly. IF you feel like i am not needed just say. There is no need for you to indirect to me. Do you know that i am not stupid enoughhhh???????? Aku just rase geram, disappointed and sedih ah. I just wanna MIA one day once i become a cabin crew. I will travel often. I dont think will stay in Singapore that much. That is my promise. I am going to MIA. People do not need me anymore. I am not needed in their life. People have been hurting me, lying to me and etc. I had enough. I just hope that one day i could be a cabin crew. I am dying to be that. Not because it is a glamorous job is just my passion and meet different type people. I am tired of seeing the same people and same attitude in Singapore. Especially in my household. I need open minded people. I just wish that one day my love of my life is a good guy? If there isnt, forget it. Tkde jodoh pon tkpe. I am an independent woman, If i ever feel like coming back to Singapore one day maybe that just sucks. I think i will be at home for one day?? & i just shove my ass out from the house. I had enough already ah people hiding things from me. There is no need for you to tell me anymore. Just keep it and tell outsiders ah okay :) Aku kan not darah daging kau. Tak ya la bilang aku. Outsiders must be your DARAH DAGING SEHATI SEJIWA. Gasak kau la nak. Fck it la hor. Perangai kau seriously mcm ccb la. I feel such a relieve ah type this out because letting out to my family members pon mcm tak guna ah. You guys thinks that i am so stupid.

Honestly, right now i feel like finding a job. I just need to find some income for myself and own experience. I want something that related to beauty and some data entry? Either one? Ugh, i just need to have that feeling of having own money yak know. UGH. I am tired of doing side business kat internet. Boring sia lama2. OK la bye. have fun reading people

CHAOCHAO

RECOVER!

14/10/16
10:41PM

Alhamdulilah, ive recovered from my chicken pox. My experience of having chicken pox was really sucks but on the other hand i am happy that i have already recover. The scars on my face has already disappear. It was a relieve. Coming back to school was okay. FINALLY it is the weekend. Time pass by really quick these days. My teacher is so sweet lol HAHA, HE ASKED ME HOW IS MY EXPERIENCE ON HAVING CHICKEN POX. LOL HAHAH. All i can say is ' i have lost my appetite' Thats all la. HAHA.

Ugh, i do not know why but theres something inside me that i need to let it out. I just feel so frustrated so much. Whenever i see that son of a b face. I get mad & disgusted. OK so , he treated her as a friend and nothing much. He admit that he is contacting with her and does not even have a feelings for her. TO MY OPINION LA KAN, IF you start to talk to that particular person, you should have an intention. If you suddenly just leave her like that what do you think will she feel. OBVIOUSLY, SUCKS. LOLSZXCXCX. If you really like someone just talk to that particular person and do not give hopes. Although you seems oblivious about it but please use your mind la boy. Irritating nak mampos sia. I felt annoyed so much la. I am not surprised if he stop talking to me lol. kbye.

HEHE BYEBEYBEYE

Founded out

5/10/16
11:03pm

Helo,

So today apparently, theres a hot news. I got to found out from my close friend that someone chatted with that guy. LOL. I knew it that girl is chatting with him. Aku mcm tak tau nak rasa ape lagi la. I am excited for next week for my come back. Im gonna be sarcastic with that guy. ' oh so i heard some news from you huh'. When it hurts but it hurts so good. Whatever lah. Do whatever you want boy, i cant lie but i got a little rush whenever i talk to you but i hold myself back because i do not want to fall in love. I refrain myself from doing that. It is not my time yet and i am not capable of loving anyone. I am love awkward. I talk shit and love roasting people in a joking way so i do not know if anyone could handle me. Before i forgot, he still got the cheek to whatsapp me and say ' i cant wait for you to come back! Please be quick'

ERRR... Da mendak ke kat skola? I thought you are chatting with her in class and you are still bored? LOL. You think i am an entertainer isit. lol she cant make you happy isit and you need me to entertain you in school? ummm okay. Memang patut la aku kat rumah so i can chill my ass off at home i do not need to face you in school. The way you talk to me now is so different and i do not know why anymore but i do not care about it because my heart is too hard lol. hhahaha. I know how guys gonna play with their tricks. DONT THINK IMA GONNA FALL INTO YOUR TRAP BOY. I'm smart and mature enough to think. One week at home feels forever but i enjoy it HAHA actually no ah i miss alotttt of lessons already. IM DEAD BRO IM DEAD. Besides, they are just revising. So once im back to school it is already class test. LOL. Ok la kan. My life just sucks. HAHA.

OKK BYE BYE.

Hello?

2/10/16
12am

HELLO OCTOBER!

Apparently today, two of my friends asked me whether i am alright. That is so sweet. They saw my tweet whether im i alright. I just had to lie and say that i am fine but actually i did not lie haha. I just said i am not completely fine at all something just distracts my mind. I felt really touched when my friend asked my well being. That is kinda sweet. That just shows how much they paid attention to my tweets... I do not really Retweet something emotional but recently i did. I just couldn't help myself. I dont want to think too much on this anymore because i told myself that everything is going to be alright and i have to get fully recovered from my chicken pox.

OMG I better get studying soon. 14 oct is my test. I have not yet to study! Principals Office Administration just sucks so much. I dont even get it. At times i felt like giving up but this is life, we cant give up that easily. Thankfully, this coming exam it is only ONE PAPER. HAPPY SIA! Actually, i forgot about my test... till my friend posted it. LOL. How much i hated school LOL. I just cant wait to end my studies. I should have studied harder but it is already too late. 2 years NITEC and i hope i will get into 2 year higher nitec................ Ya Allah Lamanyaaaaaaaaaaa.......................
I am so bored................ I feel like studying but confirm gua sakit balik. I am so tired of eating pills 4 times a day. I cant wait to get rid of my pills. I really salute people that had to consume pills for the rest of their life. HOW YOU GUYS MANAGE? Oh my.. Cobaan !!

Ok bye. I need to find something else to do other than sleep......... OK BYE!

Night thoughts?

1/10/16
12:45am

I hate late night thoughts but i just cant keep it on my head. I just need to say it out. I do not know why guys a oblivious enough to know that our conversation is getting lesser and lesser? Or It is quite different. Why cant feel that way? I am not that sad but i am quite disappointed. He is not what i think he were. All he say eventually turn out as a lie? Ok, i treated this person as a friend nothing much but he is like SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO me. As in : the way we think , our humour. Everything changes last three days ago. I do not know why. Like the fck? If you are bored just say. Dont make me look stupid. If you are using me, i suggest you to get a fcking life. I treated you sincerely. I do not have doubt. BUT you make to doubt you because you are chatting with one of my close friend. THANKFULLY, i have one week MC so i wont be looking at your fcking face which makes me depressed. It is okay because i dont need a guy like you that make use of me. I know you are chatting with one of my close friend but that doesnt mean you gonna just walk away from me like that? I will see when will ' I WONT LEAVE' will last. I dont think it will last LOL. because we are just classmates. I can leave whenever the fck i want because i do not need useless mafakas in my fcking life. I just need someone that will stay with me and understand me. I thought you will understand me but sadly you dont. I felt suckish. I felt useless. I just wish you luck in everything you do. I had enough with guys shits.

ok bye la i want charge laptop dah. GOODNIGHT.

Mixture of feelings.

28/9/16

Its been a long time that didn't went into my blog. Lately my gpa score was fine , manage to get 3.3 . Many projects happening this year. I just have to be strong and tawakal diri. Right now, i am having chicken pox. How sucks. This is the first time that ive gotten chicken pox. 17 YEARS OLD. Da tua bangka. It was because i didnt get when i was younger and idk why. Two weeks of holiday has passed by and next week i need to get back with reality. From what i could foresee, i could not get back to school. I have so much scars on my face. All the dots happening on my face are getting worst. I just cant wait for this chickenpox to recover.

Apparently, my life was quite off at times. This guy whatsapped me like out of a sudden? I am okay with it because i treated him as a friend ONLY. I do not wanna go far because i know guy my age is not even serious about RS. WHICH MY PREDICTION WAS RIGHT. One time, my friend which is a girl told me that she is chatting with him. That makes me shock. Aku nak panggil laki tu bodoh pon tk tau eh. Dia gi bobal ngn orang yang aku dekat da kenape? Da sah sah tau, pompan tu will tell her close friend who is she chatting with anytime. Come on boy, what the actual fck you are doing with your life? Are you on the right lane? The way you chatted with her is the same you did to me. oh my god. What is you motive ? This just got me thinking. I am just feeling disappointed with your actions towards me. Luckily , i did not fall with your sweet words because i know guys will sugar coat girls with their filthy words that make girls fall in love. My disappointment makes me burst into tears. I do not know why im i having this treatment ? Now, He is just giving me cold replies & replying me late? Plus this just got me very anxious. What did i do wrong? Just speak up. I thought you say you hated people running around the bushes? You say hate your ex controlling you? You say that it is hard to find loyalty. Fck it boy. Suck your words back up. You even say that you wont even leave me? OK. That sentence just make me cringe. I don't mean to be rude but I know that people will eventually leave at the end of the day. I tried not to catch feelings but it makes me feel so disappointed and sad. Why are you doing this to me? What wrongs have i did to you lately? I believe that i did not do any shits to you. What the fck are you doing in this world. WHEN you told me that you slept with someone doing your trip, makes me feel disgusted with you. You still could say ' It is fine sleeping with your goodfriend what?' . All i could say is ' HAHAHA okay?!' damn boy, what the fck. THAT just disgust me in disguise. I am so greaful to have my close friends asking me whether i am fine. It is such a sweet gesture of them although i am sick. I am clearly, not an option for you boy. If you think that i am an option to you, get the fck out from my life. I do not need temporary people in my life. Just speak the straight up with me, i would rather get hurt by the truth than a lie.

I am tired of this. I knew it from the start i wasn't meant to be inlove or even chat with anyone. I know i am not beautiful , smart , greatest , sweet all those full package. I just cant wait to graduate in ITE. Proceed my life with Diploma. Most probably if theres Rezeki, I would love to continue my studies in a University getting a Degree. I hope that i could reach my career goals as a cabin crew. I just want to meet different type of people.

ENDING MARCH

31/3/16

HEY!

Overall , as a business student was quite okay. HAHA. Exams over. PARTLY. How insane that my class dared to talk during exam HAHAHA. It was sooo fun. My two weeks of holiday is ending soon. So sad hor. What sucks right now is that. MY TIMETABLE CHAGNED. What on earth. 8 am classes is a no no . IT IS SO TIRING OKAY. I try to think at the brighter side. Be positive. Because my class will end at 1pm HAHA. YAAAAS BTCH YAAAS. Gonna miss my afternoon classes especially 2 PM CLASS. Bid Farewell. HAHA. Nvm la. Life have to move on what. It wont go the way that we want. Redha okay people. I thought the timetable will change after june as that is what my CA SAYS. HE SAYS THAT OKAY!

PISSED HOR PISSED.

Dang la cant wait for another holiday. I dont wanna go back to school la. Have to wait for public holiday like this. Hate dramas in my class. Some malay girls pissing me off. hehe but i dont give a shit on ''them''. Shall just mind my own business hor okay. I just hope that my result is okay. HAHA now then i just wanna be scared on my result. YA ALLAH semoga aku berjaya dalam peperiksaan aku! AMIN !

If i get B for my CF1 i will be happy already. HAHA. I dont know why but i know i wont get A. I nearly get an A for my CF1 :') 5 Marks GONE. IM SO CARELESS. WALAOOOWEIII. but sokay............. CAN TRY AGAIN RIGHT! Dont give up la. Ok i just hope my April will went welllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. Insya'Allah.

Okie byebyebyebyeybeye

College life

12/1/16
Hi
It is only the second day of the orientation and im feeling so shagged. Making friends was tougher than i thought. Today was a bit pissed with this girl. She seems friendly and kind suddenly she kept quiet like i have did something wrong. LOL ? Please Do not show attitude this orientation week. Kau dah kenapa? Seriously sia that girl something wrong sia. Da bilang what we talked about she changed. Where this girl name ' princess' likes to make used of people and i told her about it and she just ignored. I wanna strangle that type of people. Please be appreciative. O Allah Please help to calm haida :( and make her realize! Ya Allah , i wanna find good friends. Mostly they are lots of Malay girls and little Chinese.  36 students in my class. LIKE WHAAT. I thought my class gonna be only 10 but the number surpass me. Ya Allah , semoga keesokan hariku akan lagi terbaik,sudah 2 hari hamba mu disini tidak berasa selesa.Ya Allah engkau sahaja tahu apa perasaan yang tersirat di hati aku. Dugaanku. Aku serahkan ni kepadamu Ya'Allah why i am feeling down of the first week of school .

Basically , in class , my teacher talked about jumping to higher nitec year 2.But i have to go through two years of nitec business and do really well for me to jump into higher nitec year 2 course. I am so scared that i couldn't make it. My main goal right now is to spend 3 years in ITE and then get out from there because i couldn't take it with the huge sums in my class. I asked for my close friends to pray for me. I cried when i think about it. I try to be strong but i can't because of the friends in my class are so bossy. It is okay, i am gonna study hard and be the best. ok gdbye

8.33pm
12/1/16

New years

Hey!
3/01/2016

Happy new years to everyone! I am abit late to this as i was too tired to post a blog :p . Okay so i got into business course in ITE East. Quite excited yet lazy to get back to school.... I would rather stay at home for another one more month. LOL not possible girl! Lets start talking about my new years resolution~ I just wanna excel in my studies. I do not wanna play a fool. Haha. Getting a good GPA. Making my parents proud. Hope to get bursary ! Dang , i just hope all of the subjects are easy ! Doable ! If they are not easy... I wish all the best to me! Ya Allah ! Im so scared that i mixed with the wrong company. Ya Allah! Debaran di hati ! My goals is to really excel well in studies. Not really ready for the exams but i hope my teachers are able to teach me! I hope 2016 brings good to me! New environment , new life , new friends , new minds and lastly new knowledge. Really quite anxious about my course subjects. What if i am not able to make it or worst still couldn't understand.... No one in my family knew about business Im always the odd one out but it is okay to learn something new. Quite unique right? Honestly, I am thankful with my choices maybe Allah S.W.T knew what is better for me. He knows the best. He is the best planner <3 Putting my faith in him.

Received a whatsapp msg from my classmates 4A2 , Looking at their timetable gave me a shock of my life. Having FNN Lessons on a friday afternoon. How insane is that. Yeah i know it is for their own good since they are doing their ' O ' s .Wishing them all the best :) Quite much though! 3 classes of sec 5 in Siglap Secondary School ! Proud of my school ! Seriously though didnt felt proud of my school since day one but it made me smile when i heard there are 3 Sec 5 classes ! Go Go Siglap! Yeah . Most people may think Siglap was a bad school but sorry !! Siglap is awesome! Do not judge its book by the cover * winks * Haha. Okay whatever please do not feel offensive by it :( Okay gtg guyss. see ya in the next blog xP

Love
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12.46am
4/01/16