Results Day

Hi.
30/11/15
It is getting late, haha. Basically , Today is the result and i am so out of words. 9 am it will probably announce my result and i have to check it. LOL how troublesome it can be. Particularly, i am not ready for school or friends either. I would rather be solo tho but i need friends to motivate me to study. Dang it man. To be very honest, i do not really like my course. I am really lost for words. No one could inarticulate my actions. Tongue-Tied for words. Why im i just so stupid ?
Whatever. I felt really apprehensive about going to College . Ok. Do you guys have this feeling of people somehow looking down on you but not in an obvious way? Hah. I've been in that position before. It happen in my SIL house hah lol. Basically this aunty somehow asking me ' So are you schooling ? '
So i answered ' um currently i am waiting for my results '
That aunty replied ' Oh, O levels ? '
' HAH no. Luck wasnt on my side as i need to minus 1 point '
AND WANNA KNOW WHAT GUYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Her face changes :) :) :) :) . Lol. So ? Hah typical i knew it. Looking down on me hah? Just because i am going to ITE you are going to looking down on me? Wonderful, splendid. Oh, i know, your family is really blessed with smart ass brains that went to OLEVELS and then to study universities in overseas. Ah i see aunty. I was really puzzled at that time. Pathetic much! and yea to my SIL when i say that i am picking Business for my course she seems different and ask me ' WHY BUSINESS??????????! '
And im like ' huh why cant i ? Is it a bad course? ' Hm please don't give me the ' WHY' because things changes now :) Then what type of courses you wanna me to go? The type of courses that i am not interested in ? -.- You have not seen the criteria. I just don't get it with some other people. Why can't you just be happy for me ? I've been pushing myself hard till i've gotten sick during math exam and no one knows. The suck thing is that the math N level happened to be in the afternoon paper. How suckish can it be but i have to push it through. Is just pissing me off in this two weeks. 9 hours time it will be my results. Bismillah. Hopefully it will be a good one for me because i have been waiting for it but however , i am really depressed by spending it four years in ITE. Hah. Argh. Thinking about four years just make me feel so agitated by it.
Gtg.

Love
I.N
12.59am